Grandpa...

Today I should be in school getting to know my classmates, getting to know my teachers, and letting them getting to know me. But I’m not, not anywhere near class or school, definitely nowhere near my teachers or classmates, not learning about them, or letting them learn about me. I’m on a road that I have been down many times before, but never like this I’ve never not wanted to go in this direction, because it means confronting myself, and my missing heart piece. A piece of my heart and me will be gone when I finally return home. I wanted to see them because it has been a while but never like this, never watery. Water spilling from everyone, instead of bubbles, and sunshine… water instead of rays of light and bursting flowers. I’ll miss it when I’m there and when I’m home I’ll miss the phone calls, and the silly words “how are you doing in school?… got any boyfriends?… i love you more than meat loves salt, gotcha!... Breanne can hug me anytime for a nickel or a dime, fifty cents for overtime!” I’ll miss the denture smile and the rough beard against my cheek. I’ll miss the worn body in the easy chair and the snacks that were bad for him, but that he ate anyway. I’ll miss the stubborn jackass of him and the complaining that we don’t visit enough.  I’ll miss the strong hugs, hugs that I never thought could be that strong. I’ll miss the burnt pancakes, the strange food likes and the only fishing trip we ever went on together. I’ll miss the stories about the Cheetos and the baseball games. I’ll miss the scooter and the truck that was a smaller version of the one at home. I’ll miss the familiar road and the deer painted on the garage. With our memories we all fade in time.

environmental vid
take a gander

funniest video ever... i know nuns and some of them might have actually done that which i think is better but what can you do?
i just think its an icebreaker if ever you've seen one although the glue would never be that good. anyway yeah thats all i really have to say today
besides a shout out to steph to see if she reads this...

GLEE... Yes seriously i am now offically a GLEEK

so i never thought the day would come that i would fall in love with a tv show that i thought was the dumbest idea ive ever seen for a show... GLEE.
i guess that i didnt like it because everyone else does or near next to everyone...
but Glee is what i think friendship should look like and love of music does look like not to mention the fact that they have quite a few lookers and strong personalities that i admire because of their bravery as characters
and i have a huge crush on Sam better known by his real name Chord Overstreet... i just love those big luscious lady lips and the very charming smile on his Tennessee born face those lips are utterly lickable and i was sad to find out he will not be making an appearance on season 3 of Glee.... but im sure that they will find an ultra-hot replacement for him heres looking toward the topping of that luscious "Rocky" impersonator (as in Rocky Horror not Rocky that punches things)

he is already sorely missed by this newly converted GleeK (isn't he adorable? i like a man who can pull off glasses and make them mighty sexy)
 i fell into this GLEE trap by chancing upon the Glee project which i am voting holeheartedly for either sam or hannah but i just found out she is no longer in the running so sam it is then i just love those dreads and the intense smokey eyes hes got going on... though Chord still plays on my heart strings
i really want to intern with their fashion department because they do great things with the looks they create and its what im doing with my life... or at least what i have planned so far. that would be a super awesome opportunity even though i know i would probably be trying to get the slushie coloring out of their clothes most of the time never the less it would still be epic.
-and thats how bre c's it